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[15 Feb 2005|03:34pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

i'm making a new livejournal which will be friends-only.
if you're added then hooray for you.
i'll comment on your lj and let you know.


THIS LJ IS DEAD.

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[15 Feb 2005|01:20pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

ok, who else did philippe send that huge message to?
sorry for him trying to bring you into this and excuse his rudeness.

disreguard that whole message.

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[14 Feb 2005|09:09pm]
[ mood | high ]

my valentine's day turned out pretty awesome after all.
i've been smoking weed all day,
and my mom bought me a panda build-a-bear.

i've never had a valentine before anyways so what do i care.

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[13 Feb 2005|11:05pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

this weekend was fun.
spent it with tracy in irvine.
her family had a chinese new year party today so i got kicked out hahaha.
chilled at lance's for a bit afterwards.

i need a job really bad.
fuck i hate job hunting.
and i hate jobs period. (obviously.)
i need to finish my geisha tattoo seriously.

tracy gave me a cute tare panda organizer and a rad urban outfitters jacket.
i wuv her.

i'm starting to write again which makes me happy.
my artist/writer's block is going away after like 3 years.
yay! :DDDD
lookit this cool piece i did.

i made up the kanji so suck it haha.
i still need to figure out how to hook up my scanner.

tomorrow i'm hanging out with my old friend from 4th grade michael schatz and we're going to get stoned. hell yeah i fucking love that kid.

fuck valentines day. fagz.

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akjnslkjns [13 Feb 2005|05:21pm]
[ mood | bored ]

eeeedan: if i didn't have class tomorrow i'd come see you and bring you a cute fluffy panda and some chocolates

:D dan is the best at cheering me up. weee <3

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[13 Feb 2005|01:58am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

EW FUCK YOU.
HEARTLESS ASSHOLE.


keep hoping from girl to girl, in the long run you will end up alone and unhappy.
that's what you fucking deserve anyways.
i'm actually the one who's too good and too caring for you.
have fun with your little stupid flings and i hope in every one of them you get HURT and used and stepped all over.
and i hope in the future you regret what you did to me.
well, you will, because karma will bite you in your ass.
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sup? i'm an alien. [11 Feb 2005|07:03pm]
[ mood | depressed ]





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i love sauna's :D [10 Feb 2005|10:25pm]
[ mood | blah ]

i dyed my hair marroonish today.
i likeee it.
it's gotten ridiculously long.
i did my friend amanda's hair today too.
i touched up her streaks and it looks really good.
she liked it better than her hairstylist's work (who went to cosmetology school haha).

we went to the gym afterwards, where i FLUSHED my car/house keys down the toilet. hahaha fucking sucks. i only care about my panda keychain that my best friend gave me. it's winnie the poo with a rubber panda suit. :'(

i miss lindsey and laurren.

my insomnia is back, which sucks major ass.
i know why, whenever i get into this depression mode this always happens.
i lay in bed every night for 3+ hours staring at my stupid wall.
i have a temper pedic mattress and down feather blankets/pillow which usually knock me the hell out instantly.

but i'm actually in a good mood, even though my heart is heavy i try to keep a smile on my face.
i need to start going to the gym more haha.

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i just fucking want you back. [09 Feb 2005|07:19pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

i hate being alone now ugh.
whenever i'm away from my friends for a second i think about how depressed i really am and how i just want it to be old times again.
when i was truely happy and sober and in love.
this sucks.
I HATE THIS SO MUCH.

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thrift store yeaah. [08 Feb 2005|02:18pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

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[07 Feb 2005|06:03pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

me and clay snuck into the ritz carlton at 2 am and used their jacuzzi last night ahahah.
fucking snazzzzzy!
i got my hands on the mars volta cd that isn't coming out for another month.
:D :D :D
he got me obsessed with waffles + peanutbutter.
imma get all fat now eek. :x

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[06 Feb 2005|08:15pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

entire weekend with clay, allison, lance, and aj.
pretty much best people in the whole entire world.
spent the last 5 days with allison and lance.
they are cute together.

i'm in san clemete right now. eh.

people are assholes and try to act like everythings cool when they did some fucked up shit to me.
haha NO.
i'm happier without that shit so i'll disreguard it and erase people who pull that out of my life.
i won't be your last resort to boredom.

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long entry of nonsense. [03 Feb 2005|11:52am]
[ mood | artistic ]

yay!
a very nice man who works at microsoft believed my story and gave me a code for xp. finally, i thought i was totally screwed.
so, me and lance hungout last night to catch up, and now we're hanging out again and doing graffiti art with paint markers.
he rules a whole fucking lot and i'm happy for once in a very long time.
we never really chilled with just us two after all these years.
i miss doing art.
me and clay chilled in my art room and painted all day last weekend.
a lot of boys who are very artistically talented have been around me in the past couple months and it's really refreshing and inspiring. boys > girls.

wellll anyways,
mcdonalds sucks ass already haha.
drive thru on your first night rules. sike.
and 30 min traffic when you live 2 miles away because you worked at 3 and live by about 6 schools is whack. i could have walked faster seriously.
i think i'm going to mostly be starting around 3 pm too FUCK.

my cell phone basically never works so sorry if anyone's been trying to call.
haha doubt that.

anyways,
bad job & broken heart vs. graduating on tuesday & renewed friendship & computer/boredom being saved (windows xp = $200 HAH, restoring everything once a month would be fucking annoying and i'm not that desperate.)

just fade away from my heart and constant thoughts already. 2 months apart means something obviously, that you don't believe in us and just forgot all the time we spent together and how close we were. why do i still believe in what we had then? it won't magically come back. after that long period of time i should have learned to cope, which i'm extremely good at when it comes to relationships, but something refuses to let go.

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[01 Feb 2005|07:15pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

i got a job at mcdonalds.

AHAHAHAHAH.

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[01 Feb 2005|03:16pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

my computer doesn't work.
i have no fucking activation code for windows xp so i'm SCREWED up the ass.
i'm at the library cuz i was out job hunting around here.
hopefully i find a job.
yeah life sucks. wah.

raquel is the best.
that is all. :D

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i dyed my hair dark brown. [31 Jan 2005|01:32am]
[ mood | gloomy ]

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[27 Jan 2005|11:18pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

bleh.
i need a job super bad just to have gas money.
i miss someone super bad who called me today out of nowhere. :/
i'm in a super bad mood.
my hair is super ugly.

/end rant.

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yay i get to see clay on friday! :D [24 Jan 2005|07:50pm]
[ mood | excited ]

<333!

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<3333 [23 Jan 2005|07:25pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

san clemete.Collapse )

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meep? [21 Jan 2005|05:34am]
[ mood | sore ]

neko is attacking me ugghh.
ahah so i choked her back.
hahaha i didn't realize till i saved this that i was like choking her.


yeaaah no makeup! :P

fatass won't get off my lap.
god i need to SLEEP.

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